once again ;

2009-03-27T17:38:00.002+08:00

i have MOVED.
msn:edsyuk28@hotmail.com

2009-03-26T00:34:00.001+08:00

you see, im still figuring things.
ill be moving, SOON.

livejournal? wordpress? blogger?

2009-03-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

OHH, ERIIK have been laughing at me when i told him whats happening. i guess ive been pranked like again. i dont give a fugly shit, it was jsut another game.

i guess i need some fun.

2009-03-23T22:28:00.002+08:00

i was hoping that this time wasnt another terrible nightmare. i hope this wasnt another wrong move. i treasure you like how i did before but its abit of being careful. you put my latenights with smiles. you make me alittle too happy. but i know i dont put high hopes on you. i hope you didnt come and go like how you did before. i hate getting hurt but im good at hurting back. im taking this like a game.
enough of you.

im really having this super big problem to wake up as early as seven. and ive not been doing good for now. you see, i will be wasting my time with bloghops, pet society, online shop, reading, eating, watching, talking and so much with those unneccessary things. and sometimes, even during tutoring, my eyes will be very heavy and trust me ill be yawning. k, jsut need a change.

i jsut cant wait to do my shopping. and yes, its for school you see. i really wanted to get my bangs but i know mum will surely nag and bestf dont agree with it. its been months since i cut my long curly hair and i know if i keep it longer, i jsut will have simple good hair and it suits me.

im getting excited.

2009-03-22T22:43:00.002+08:00

it turns 40days today since you left us. everything dont work like how it use to be. i jsut missed you, you are the only one called me azie/gie. i jsut miss the moment where you joke with us, where you always remind us that whatever you do for us is not jsut the best but because you love us. and i remember the moment you called me 'sayang'. i treasured the moment you spent with me. i was the good among the three, i seldom disobey. i dont hold too much grudge on you. seldom, jsut communication break down. but now, GOD love you more.
no matter what, YOU are still my best tiptop dad.
you have been missed ayah.

okay, i jsut need to learn how to wake up early.tsk.

2009-03-21T23:53:00.002+08:00

theres a reason why things were that way.

but i felt appreciated with the natural beauty.

im not you.

the best thing about me is you,old timer.

2009-03-19T23:06:00.002+08:00

being emotinally disturb was never what i wanted. i wasnt myself lately, ive been confused. i was behaving very super weird and getting up in the midnights was not something new. i dont even understand myself. i guess there are things that need a change in my life. either about the relationship or personal matters. i jsut couldnt force myself to change. i am jsut a little naive. hoping hard to know or even have an idea about whats happening now is what i wish. sometimes, you jsut dont feel like facing the future.

i hope you dont feel like a toy.

2009-03-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

i guess people jsut love to be copycat.
oh, atleast have a sense of originality.
i dont give a shit, i dont like plastic.
jsut dont bother and interfere about me.

im jsut happy with my gelak geli senda ketawa.

2009-03-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

dont take advantage of me cause you're not me.

you dont take me for granted cause ive done enough for you.

all i wanted was a sense of appreciation from you.

2009-03-14T23:39:00.002+08:00

im super DUM-DUM most of the times.
march have been nice to me. maybe its a gift for my birthday. ive superalot of events for march before school re-open and please ive never count down to school opening. i will be having a date with secret admirer and of course more outing with bestf. other than all that, i want my karaoke session. and oh, i want more warehouse sales after 20thmarch, hopefully.
and mom have been super nice to me, ILOVE you MOM.

i jsut hate the sleepless night but jsut love the latenight calls.

2009-03-13T19:10:00.002+08:00

WATCHMEN.
i had a date with abg eriik today. abg eriik is someone who got the same birthday as me, & yes, i treat him like an abang. my abang bacen wuek. thanks alot for the movie treat, great day with you. and of course, gelak geli senda ketawa.

HAFIZ 22ND BIRTHDAY.

2009-03-12T20:12:00.004+08:00

this was my second present, FUJIFILM finepix J150w.
thanks eyh.

11TH032009
HAFIZ'S 22nd Birthday!

so, it was a well plan surprise.
i hope you enjoy the day spent with me.
ILOVE .

and so, in the morning, met him and we went shopping. very the funny thing, i gave him a huge birthday card pretending there were nothing else for him. and so never felt disappointed, we cab to Arnold's for lunch. ok, it was finger licking good. i recommend Arnold compared to KFC. ok, and so we headed to TKC to get my surprise. wohhooo.

and so, then we headed back to tampines to get mum's order (kfc). then we went to my house. i ask bestf to deliver the kfc to mum and i acted as if i need to buy some grocceries at the provision shop. but i went to the bakery to buy a birthday cake. woohhoo. someone was surprise. i gave him his second presents.

ohh gerek kape?

once again; HAPPY BIRTHDA BACENS.

2009-03-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

ohh my.
is there anyone kind enough to buy me nike airmax or even HI-style shoes.
ahahahahaha

ok, i want my camera eyh bestf.

fewhours BESTF turn 22. wahahahahaha

2009-03-09T22:19:00.002+08:00

thanks to the lovelies, NABS&INDAH. i enjoy the day spent with you guys and noriz missing.

okay, update more when i get the pics.

2009-03-05T11:56:00.002+08:00

its nearly noon, im sleepy cause i only had 3hours of sleep. but my latenight phonecalls with you jsut make me excited. and i hope this is not another forever mistakes.

i guess this entry really need me to explain things where people dont even know. it was such a perfect thing in people eyes when peope keep seeing pictures of me and hafiz. what can i say, we were lovers before, yes i still do love him now. but we have been BESTFRIEND for months. let me emphasize again, we are BESTFRIEND. okay?

jiggles.

2009-03-03T16:23:00.002+08:00

sometimes, it is just a very bad idea when you are having your hols but you dont seem to know how to suit yourself in the living room and watching KOKO power ranger or some stupid comedian shows. all you do for your hols is stick your butt onto your bed and enjoying bloghopping or even scrolling up and down on your desktop. ok, i know i can look real bacens in webcamming, right mr erriikk?
NYEHAHAHAHA

ACTUALLY , i have tons of upcoming events. ive got two vivo dates next week, ive got an upcoming birthday to be celebrated next week and ive never count down to school reopen. oh mama, i want be a uniform kiddo back. BLEAAHH.

anyway, my birthday was pleasant because ive achieved what i should have before 19th. ive gained GPA above 2.5 and of course, getting only mom's support, ILOVE MY FAMILY. dad been missed. ):

and the best thing ever; I JSUT LOVE MY LONG CURLS. CURLS.

2009-02-28T22:44:00.003+08:00

AHAHAHAHAAH.
its my birthday, 28thfeb2009, i turn 19.
but its not like any other years, i miss late dad so much.
ayah, eventhough you left us, we know God love you more
and you are always been remembered and close to our heart.

birthday was well spent with bestf at Clarke Quay, with lunch/dinner at white sand's swensen.
thanks bestf for the small gift, and i want my big gift soon.
and
a big thank you to all the wishes from dearest friends, iloveyou guys alot alot eyh.

wonderful wishes from dearest friends;

Facebook;

Nisah Jfr wrote on 26feb at 11:03pm - happy advance bday!!!

Andrea Chew wrote on 27feb at 11:43am - happy birthday in advance my best fren monkey hazirah! :)enjoy and be bless always. love you. :)

Reena Lah wrote on 27feb at 11:48pm - Hazirah cayang..... Hepi Bird Day...!!! Stay coll always ya..... Weeee!~

Aisha Poh wrote on 28feb at 12:12am - happy birthday superkid!! hope you're not busy flying around saving people!

'Ainul Hikmah wrote on 28feb at 1:03am - HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!BILA MAU KARAOKE? :D

Joel Lim Titanium wrote on 28feb at 9:31am - HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Clown Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hudart Razak wrote on 28feb at 12:51pm - hey hey hey....happy birthday...see you sson ok

Noraini Mohd Shah wrote on 28feb at 12:54pm - happy birthday pe....haha

Aizuddin Jamaludin wrote on 28feb at 9:07pm - kul sana wa inti tayyiba :)
at at 11:13pm - selamat hari jadi :)

Friendster;

Mira®.
Posted on 02/28/2009 5:37 pm
Psst HAPPY BDAE!!! haha smlam mira tgk abg baut kan present untok kak soo nice. JEALOUS ah. hahas =) ader choco lagi.hehe =D HAPPY BDAE!! STAY HAPPY ALWAES!!
love,Mira

sms;

cik Lina kus
27-feb-2009 06:45
Hari ini hari jumaat.orang tu hari jadi.kla nak hadia jgn lupa dtang ke rumah hhihhih. selamat ulang tahun yg ke 19 smga pjng umur murah rezki in'sya Allah amin.... dp c.ina n kluarga

eriik ; THE BIRTHDAY BOY TOO.
27-feb-2009 23:34
i noe its a little 2 early but jus wana say happy bdae 2u..may u hav a betta yr n gd luck 2 wateva u do..
zra;EYH ABG ERIKK,we share the same birthday ; happy 25thbdae.YOU TOO HAVE A BETTA YEAR AND GOOD LUCK. WUEK.

noriz
28-feb-2009 00:11
happy nineteenth birthday my dear friend! hope you'll be blessed with great health and wealth aite. i love you girl. you know i'll always be there for you. enjoy yor day aite. love ya.

indah and JM
28-feb-2009 00:11
happy 19th birthday LOVE!

Najibon
28-feb-2009 00:24
happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to you!
happy birthday to Azie!
happy birthday to you!
have fun!

Idris
28-feb-2009 00:53
eh. happy bdae!

Nabs.
28-feb-2009 02:20
Happy birthday!! love you!

Huda
28-feb-2009 03:13
Hey haz selamat hari jadi. may ALLAH bless you. Although we have graduated for 3 years i am glad that we are still friends. for as far as i live, i have had your friendship for 7 and hope it will last longer. happy 19th birthday.

Fathiah
28-feb-2009 06:59
happy 19th birthday to dearest Hazirah! dear aziee.. wish you happy 19th bdae! Semoga panjang umur .. bahagie selalu. may ur life b filled with success and love. love you my fiend. have a wonderful day ahead. happy bdae!

Ain
28th-feb-2009 09:01
happy 19th bdae! hav a great day girl!

Sufu
28th-feb-2009 09:57
happy birthday aziee!have fun okay!

Nicole
28-feb-2009 14:54
Congratulation and salutations.. u r 1 more yr older now! hahaha happy bornday n may u have many more to keep u from staying young.

Firdaus
28-feb-2009 16:48
happy 19 bday. may all ur wish come true.

Shahidah
28-feb-2009 19:09
happy birthday!! we r aging. wish u all the best and good luck in everything. smiles.

TO MY FAMILY; thanks alot for the support given. i hope i can be a better daughter in the future.

i have reply to all the wishes personally and if i forgot to do so, my appologies.
THANK YOU SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!

2009-02-25T00:00:00.005+08:00

SWEETEST 45 MONTHS OF GREATLOVE.

"if i have to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I LOVE YOU."

ohh boy,
you were my all-time favourite. the love between us were like a war but we never admit defeat. we fight cause we believe it was true love. we had commit the perfect crime, you steal my heart and in return, i steal your heart. on the way to longlasting LOVE.

the best thing about me is you.

2009-02-22T21:10:00.002+08:00

i hope to enjoy my birthday at Henderson waves coming Saturday, 28thfeb.

interesting facts:Henderson Waves
Distance: 0.3 km
Walking Time: 05 mins
At 36 metres above Henderson Road, Henderson Waves is the highest pedestrian bridge in Singapore. It was built to connect the two hills of Mount Faber and Telok Blangah Hill.The bridge has a unique wave-form made up of seven undulating curved steel “ribs” that alternately rise over and under its deck. The curved “ribs” form alcoves that function as shelters with seats within.Slats of yellow balau wood, an all-weather timber found in South-East Asia, are used in the decking. Look out for carvings on the slats marking the height you are at on various points along the bridge.The wave-forms will be lit with attractive LED light from 7pm to 2am daily, giving the bridge an illuminative glow.

and Pet Society is very addictive.
my clumsy, is very proactive, cute and adorable.
and seriously, as clumsy as i do.
NYEHAHAHAAH

bestf knows whats the best for me. he knows me super well. and i know he cant wait for my birthday. right boy?

NYEHAHAHAHA.

theres a reason why i love the boy so much.

2009-02-21T22:46:00.003+08:00

bestf spent his afternoon at my house. oh, not like any other weekends. we were jiggling, giggling, so much. and enjoying our delicious lunch,nenek's cooking.
yeah yeah

ohh boy, i wish i could tell you. i love you.

2009-02-18T14:16:00.004+08:00

with GOD willing, tahlil and sister's engagement when smoothly on the 14th february 2009.
ALHAMDULILLAH.

anyway, i just dont like people to be plastic. and for those who dont understand me, help yourself to learn.

2009-02-18T13:53:00.002+08:00

dearest ALLAHYARHAM AYAHANDA withlove,

it was just seven days you left us but we felt that it was just a minute ago you left. it seems that it was too early to let go. we still felt that it wasnt enough time spent together. but i accept this because GOD loves you more.

dad, as a daughter, i love you alot. and i promise to be a good daughter to mom. ill take care of the family. we love you alot.

we miss you.

2009-02-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

another siblings days out. we girls cant get along well.
like mum always say, "like cats and dogs."

"sometimes we have fun taking picture with timer"

2009-02-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

you see, ive been weak and clumsy and thanks to mood swing too.

what a thing to happen,you see, you gona hate it when people start interfering and taking note of your upsanddowns and then talking about you as if they were perfect. i hate it when i get to know that especially my relatives who dont even know me, talk about me like they knew me for ages. stop it lah seyh. lets be clear, im happy with the lifestyle im in. i dont need others to bother it. you happy with yours,im happy with mine. simple (=

anyway, once again, im not arrogant. im jsut good at giggles.

lets jiggles.

2009-02-08T22:18:00.003+08:00

like how i told my mom, SUNDAY was well spent with bestf with NOTMUCH love.
nyehahahaah.
so an afternoon spent to arab street and clarke quay.

BESTF , YOU HAVE BEEN LOVED LIKE ALOT.

2009-02-07T23:56:00.002+08:00

ohh, what a luck. a rat drop on my hand when i was at Tekka Temporary Market.
YUCKS.

on a lighten side, ive got myself a punjabi suit for sister's engagement.
stay tune hor; 1week to go.

lets see whats for tomorrow.
a date with bestf.
like i told mom, "its sunday. a day that shall be spend withLOVE."

and 3 weeks to nurhazirah's 19th birthday.

2009-02-05T23:28:00.002+08:00

now, i miss bestf very badly and need a big warm hug.
my two love (pic) are mischievious.

2009-02-03T23:24:00.002+08:00

im prepared to be a housewife. specifically a wife. i really dream to be a wife, a really career minded one. where my husband get me a maid to do almost all the cooking and ironing but not the other house chores. i do the clean of clothes, the tidy of the house and importantly, breakfast for husband. ok, stop dreaming.

continue, living in a maisonette or a 5room flat. with two adorable good looking kids. oh, imagine i have to rush to send them to childcare centre before going to work and husband drive me to work. enjoy our dinner together. importantly, spending quality time together during the weekends and spend the holidays overseas. ok, continue dreaming.

its jsut a plan before marriage.

2009-02-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

everyone gona be out of town like for days. and unfortunately, i cant tagged along. that super upset me. this is due to some personal reason.

oh, my hols will end about early april which means i have two months to occupy myself with. besides tutoring, i guess ill be reading, dreaming, and worst to worst, ill be sleeping and enjoying bars of chocolate. and if i dont do something, ill be gaining massive weight. oh GOD. yoga? jogs? or even detox diet again?

oh, ive to do a last minute shopping for sister's engagement. and hoping that bestf accompany me to little india. i know you hate it. but too bad. ok, i shall plan for sunday. feeling-feeling like going arab street but the limited time with that boy make me think twicE. i wish weekends come fast cause i jsut cant wait to spend abit of time for myself.

chocolate make me loose control.

2009-02-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

ohh, one month had left. its been a really terrible rollercoaster. my new year didnt start very well and the first month turn really upside down. i hope second month of the year will be much much super better.

ive to prepare super alot of things for february. there are super alot of upcoming events this month. ive got sister's engagement on 14th feb and my 19th's borthday on 28 feb. on the other hand, ive to prepare assignments for the kids. being a tutor really giving a super headache you know. OHH WELL.

ok, ive been wanting to have a longlasting forever love. i need concern. i need care. im not lying, i miss you my 3years love. OH GOD.

2009-01-30T23:38:00.001+08:00

ohh , its post no. 401.

childplay?

2009-01-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

random

she says, "im not you."
she thinks an ideal beauty is an entity which is admired.
her bestf thinks that the way a person looks might nt matter to some,
as they look at a person behaviour as well.

ohh MARI GELAK GELI KETAWA.

2009-01-28T23:31:00.003+08:00

muhd subhi amri,
you were my joy,
you melt me with you sweet smile.
im touch when you called me 'teacher'.
im looking forward to guide you through your preschool years.
you are love.

i guess ive itchy fingers.
ok go figure!

2009-01-27T22:52:00.002+08:00

ohh boy,
ive been missing you. i want to know how are you now? have you took your meals properly? have you took enough rest?

i wish tonight could be the night that i spend it with the late night chat with you.

you were my joy, my everything.

2009-01-24T22:09:00.007+08:00

AN OUTING TO MARINA bARRAGE.

it wasnt like any other outing. you know, after not in good terms, both enjoyed time spent. ohh boy, thanks for everything.

we werent planning for marina barrage, we planned for clarke quay or boat quay. but after saw marina barrage on the highway, we lead on marrina barrage. you see, it always a bad thing when we go somewhere nice but with no cameras. im lucky to have the w595 phone. GREAT!

boy, thanks for treating me to BBQ chicken eyh. and whatever happened, you know i know. LOL. and thanks for buying me my crave, spierman bolster. i like. (=

dear boy,

i regain back my confidence. i want the love back. and i want it last long.

jiggles.

boy: are you arrogant?

girl: yes a times.

boy: but i know you are fussy.

2009-01-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

A GOODBYE TO FIRST YEAR .
AND WELCOME HOLIDAYS.

A year where everything changes,

it wasnt like that time when first semester ends, i wasnt feel so sad that much. but today, to be apart from the current class is really really 'tak bleh angkat'. they meant so much to me, a bunch of people who showed me independent. im rather independent compared to the previous class. ive a thousand to say.

Jevini - my first mate in the class. eventhough you are transfering to nyp, but i will still remeber the time we first had a nice intro and of course, being in cognitive and always scared for ppt. im gona miss you preetty babe. keep in touch.

Indah - you are my all time favourite break-out mate. BOOKLINK! thanks for being there listening to all those crap that idris had done to me. you were sweet, the closest, you have been love. (= Keep in touch.

Nabilah - thanks for being there and given me the advices. she had learn a new line from me, "thats mean." a very cheerful girl. i like your,"Cool or what? Clap ah!" you were sweet, you have been love. (= Keep in touch.

Noriz - i had the chance to get close to you towards the end, but i enjoy the time spent. i might not be your close friend, im always be there when you are down. luckily we are just few blocks away. you were sweet, THAT'S MEAN you have been love. (= Keep in touch.

Aarti - a girl whom i like to smile to. a very cheerful girl. eventhough we were not close friend, im always there when you are down. im concern okay? (= keep in touch.

Angela - a girl who always chase 168 with me every 4+pm. you gave me a big warm smile when i saw you each time in the bus. thanks for making me work hard. you were sweet, you have been love. (= keep in touch.

WOam SHing - a girl who never fail to be team with me every time and share the same model of lappy. a girl who always brighten everyone day with a HELLO! you were sweet, you have been love.(= keep in touch.

Shi min - the all time joker. whenever i sit besides you, always keep me entertain. you rocks. (= Keep in touch.

Xue Jun - my all time favourite 'take picture mate' with the lousy hp camera. working with you and passing you worksheet and 6thP was super. a nice girl. (= keep in touch.

joyce - i was a rather putting a disatance with you. one thing because you tend to show off. and im just an ordinary girl. but thanks to be a friend. (=

YanYan, yenxi - or rather the Y-squared, i dont have much to say but sometimes can be irritating but who cares. (=

Sean - i like the way you work. ive learnt alot from you. i like when you smile, very sweet to see. (= keep in touch.

Adam - the soccer guy. nothing much to say, but ive never regret when we work together. (= keep in touch.

WeiLiang - thanks for imitating my laughter. you and your nonstop disturb never make me feel so bored. a great friend. i hope you enjoy my laughter. (= keep in touch.

Joyhan - i keep calling you johannes for the first few weeks. not some MatRempit from Malaysia. A sweet guy, with a nice smile. (= keep in touch.

Lucien - you had given me advise on Detox diet. a great friend. took concern about others. HI-FIVE. (= keep in touch.

JM - until today i dun even know how to pronounce your name. but its ok, as long as im your great fren. (= i hope u enjoy my laughter. keep in touch.

anyway, ive got a very infectious laughter.

ohh and i sing a song today, 'because tonite will be the nite that i will fall for you, over again.'

2009-01-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

i wish i was the cloud. and you were the blue sky.
one day, and year 1 ends.
memory: angela and me help facy to present 6thP. baek siol.

2009-01-21T22:17:00.004+08:00

im left with 2days to spend time with w45H. ive lots to say about them, rather each of them. im gona miss them very much.

oh, lets count down to saturday. i need to spend time with the love.
i cant make my choice.
i want botanic garden, marina barrage, henderson's wave or sentosa again?

but i feeling-feeling want sungai buloh.

SHIT!

2009-01-20T22:25:00.004+08:00

ive the best moment today. i guess im so busy with every single thing and i haven even had time to spend time with friends or even myself.

yes, its been long since i last do my own reflection. theres so much to change, i feel like having bang, curly curls and having thick eyeliner. but not with heavy make up. ohh wait, that so minah. BULLSHITS!

having the outs with the ladies were superb. "mari gelak geli ketawa." seoul garden had fill my tummy and i got extra belly. eyh eyh.
i love you girls.

2009-01-19T22:41:00.001+08:00

ohh, i have 5days 2 hours before the 25th. why couldnt the love between us stay strong like those moments.

2009-01-18T21:39:00.002+08:00

sometimes, when i thought about the long lasting love, i really miss his companion. the tender loving care. the sweet talks. the always forever fightings and of course, the moment that he always give in. yes, i miss those moments. taking back the path we were together will make me even feel super bad. let now be ttm (heh, teman tapi mesra).

now, lets wait for february to come quick. im waiting for valentine's and 28feb.
i know theres gona be a big super surprise coming ahead.
its just my prediction

"aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu..."

2009-01-17T21:41:00.003+08:00

ive been expecting something but it didnt turn out good. sometimes i rather be single and be in the world of myself. having a boyf can be a burden sometimes.

ive been walking down the streets and thinking what should i do next? arrrggghh. such waste if time. ohh, i want february and march come soon

2009-01-15T23:17:00.003+08:00

its been nice knowing those girls in the pictures. they have been making my day with lots of laughter, craps, jokes and irritating super not important responses. i will be missing them as im left with one week of school and hols start then. and karaoke session soon okay girls?
YEAH YEAH.

ive been making myself trap in a dilema. i have been thinking about the boys. and yes, after taking further consideration, ive decided to jsut be a bestf to the boys. it will be unfair to either one of them if i choose one to be my bf. exactly. wateva! arrrggghhh.

ok, rather than crapping and think about those confusion, i feel like eating maggi now.
ok random.

2009-01-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

the late night talks with you completes my day. and when you said, " i REAAAAALLLLYY like you!" make me even exited. you were my joy, you were my everything.

oh, im super confused when people tell me,"OMG! you let go the 3years long lasting love?"

fall for you.

2009-01-12T21:55:00.005+08:00

i get excited when i received your text msg as early as 5am. yes, ive been waiting for your text like from the night before. too excited, i cant fall asleep the next minute.
then, i was missing you super badly, waited for your text msg but sadly i dont recieved any. hours after hours, what could i do, i gave you a miss call, and you told me you were outs and with the exgf.
i can feel the warm jealousy in me. i cant do much. oh, you keep mentioning about my past, that piss me off.

ish, i fall for you. yes, im too inlove with you.

2009-01-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

everything that i planned today was jsut another waste.
i was having a bloody tooothache which i dont know if it was cause by my gum or my tooth. but after doctor's consultation, it was an infection. watever.

ohh, i miss the TP's Jam and Hop. ok, there's always a next time.
i cant wait 28february, i want get some fun. i told mom i want go club, she smile. serious eyh! ok, but if its confirm, im gona have a secret date with someone. ok RANDOM.

ohh boy, imyverymuch.

2009-01-09T22:12:00.002+08:00

poor me, im left alone.
im gona miss the boy, dearest idris.
he just left for Malacca, and ill be waiting for your return love.
will be back by sun night or mon morning.
GRRRRHHHHHH!

2009-01-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

OMG. dieitng is a bad thing for me. i felt super weak after hours not eating a proper meal. couldnt take any longer, i had a headbanging, two EXTRA panadols doesnt even work and it ended me eating a meal. BAADDD. the boy force me to eat. GRRRHHH. its ok, i felt better then. i duno if dieting doesnt work on me. ok, shall go swim/jog/or whatever.

skiiiiiiiiiiiippppeeeeeddd .

boy, you were super random. thanks for waiting.

2009-01-07T22:39:00.002+08:00

you were my excitement.
im not inlove with the late night talks but yourself.

2009-01-06T21:03:00.002+08:00

DETOX diet?
considering .

and i am gona miss the two bestf, the first back to NSmen and second going JB for days. hence, i shall make myself busy.

2009-01-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

eventhough i have less than 60days to turn 19, i am sure to tell others that ive never been too havoc since i turned 15. my parents were never too strict on me because im a home love daughter. i am out late only if in need. parents had never put curfew on me but i did so, stewpid girl. ive never club and rarely go for party. ohh, dont look down on me, im a heavy smoker before and i drink once. OOOPPSS! you can call me a boring girl but i tell you, i really love, enjoying and treasuring my life.
unfortunately, grandma have been nagging on my attire. she has been telling me, no shorts. no shorts. and no shorts. but im stubborn. im planning to look for more dresses but im totally broke and im left with 5bucks now. oh, ive been spending on JUNKFOOD. shall be stopping my nonstop eating habits. the aim to lose weight was jsut another dream on during the hols. like bestf always say, "you macam faham je nak lose weight." i think swimming works too.
ok, if i continue my never ending typing, i will not be sleeping early. i hate when school starts. no more late night talks with 2ndbestf. and his being a fugly weirdos. ohh boy, i know your feelings. "Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you over again."

2009-01-03T21:21:00.002+08:00

i was laying on the bed while chatting with you. my mind kept asking me to tell you how i felt when i first took concern on you. i could only leave you with hints. ohh boy, i hope its never too late.

bestfriend was always there listening to my heart and soul. i couldnt denied that i still love you but time as change. if we are meant to be together, we will.

2009-01-02T23:08:00.003+08:00

the moment you talk about the other girl, i felt the hot jealousy in me.
am i supposed to feel this way?
or its far too much.
and i hate you hiding those feelings.

im done watching this. and i want more DVDs please. and im addicted to horror movies too.

2009-01-01T21:42:00.002+08:00

eventhough it is postno. 375, i wont stop the love that blooms between us.

i am happy that you gave a thought on us.

you said;
i thought about your feelings.
i thought about what shall i do with your feelings.
i thought about hoe to make u feel better about me.

i hope to say;
i am treasuring us.
cause we enjoy each other companion.

2009-01-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

ohh, HEELLO 2009!
of course im super excited to enjoy 2009.
ive been figuring out what shall be the mission for 2009 and summary of it:

meet my another bestf, idris.
enjoy school for three weeks(5thJan-25thJan).
having a different date for Valentine's Day.
(eyyhh, valentine's day is my sister's engagement day; bleaaahhh).
hoping to get a surprise birthday party or even hold a birthday party for myself(28thFeb).
celebrate bestf birthday.
hoping that i can be in year two by early of the April.
making newfriends in any kind of form.
having to enjoy my weekends with friends and importantly bestf.
and the list go on.

but i want atleast a goodbye of 20kilos.
and better dress up.

YEA YEA.

2008-12-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

im treating you more than a bestfriend, cause we are inlove.

2008-12-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

It’s the 31stdecember, and its time to say ”goodbye2008, hello2009.”
I guess to sumup the whole of 2008, ive a lot to say.

Early2008.
I was still working part-time at Mount Elizabeth Hospital as waitress and at that period of time I was super enjoying my pay, it was big money you see. And I loved February as Valentine’s Day was well spent with bestf and bestf treated me to Swensen for my birthday. Then by March, I was posted to RP, which was super unpredictable. And of course was celebrating bestf’s birthday and Cik DIDI’s and Cik SALEH’s wedding. By then, first year in RP started in early April. Things went smoothly during this period.

in Mid2008.
Early Mid of 2008, my family was having a family gathering and we always loving it. And then of course, always having the meetups and gatheringwith either the exeastviewans pri/exlysians/JBS peeps/or even the republicans. And of course, Sentosa trip accompanied with airport Popeyes will never be missed during the holidays. AND the love between bestf and me turn 3years. And then by August, it’s the time to leave w45L, and of course until today, I learnt the friendship and they were my sunshine, reminded me how friends meant a lot in our life.

towardsEnd2008.
So second semester started, and the new class was awesome too. And I am very active with my interest group. And then Salam Lebaran, even though I didn’t do much visiting, I felt this was the meaningful one. Then with the zooing trip/sentosa trip/airport popeye. Super awesome. Oh then, time flies so fast, the love between me and bestfriend turn 3.5years. Superb. Well, I am writtng my last Woords for the sumup currently. YEAAAHHH.

2008-12-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

FAMILY OUTS DAY.
YEAH, at last ive got my family out day. im super loving this days, outs with the own parents, second parents, grandnanny, the siblings and bestfriend. and i shall thank bestfriend, for being there for us and making your car go round and round.
started of with the morning breakfast, hajah maimunah at Jalan Pisang, headed to shaw house for window shop, then mid-afternoon with swimming at Jurong swimming complex. oh then, dinner at Aye rajah Food centre.

and sometimes, i dont understand you my closefriend.

update soon.

2008-12-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

i wish i was perfect.
you see, i admired tony hawk, and i wish he was dating me when he was 18. oh even me being the main actress in Spiderman instead of that Mary Jane.
im bullshitting.
you see, i wish i could go out and introduce myself,
"OHH HELLO, im zrah and beyonce knowles my bestfriend and Alicia Keys is my twins."
cool right?
i shall dream on.

shall i join the rest for countdown?
and i want a surprise party for my birthday.
2months to go, ill turn 19.
2months 11 days, bestfriend turns 22.

update soon.

2008-12-27T18:41:00.001+08:00

i thought it wasnt too late for you to confess.
im ready to hear you out.
you are not like my other normal friends,
cause you have been love.
i felt stupid the other day.

2008-12-25T16:21:00.003+08:00

OHH, whats for christmas?
from early afternoon, i was multi-tasking with searching for sources for the preschool learners, chatting/webcaming with the bf and watching WildChild. it was awesome & "freddy" was super cute but close friend cuter eyh. right?

skipped.

im sleepy, super sleepy. and i know if im gona fall asleep, mom will really give the good nagging. arrggghhh. i felt asleep at 1plus in the morning, woke up by idris's phone call at late 3am. chatted with him to nearly 530am and back dozing till 10am. i really miss chatting with him. &yes, i do love him. ok- HIAAKKDUISH!

ANYWAY, tagboard missing for now.

update soon.

2008-12-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

the love went strong, 3years7months.

dearest boy,
i met you when im jsut a little kid. i was learning on how to stand on my feets and walk down the streets. i was a very messy girl cause im so unsure on what i want. what could i say? im not the normal kid. im fussy like every moment. im giving you a very hard time almost everytime. you dont seem a perfect guy to me. im an attitude girl but you were very patient with those nonsense. and im super lucky that you have been there but not always and im sure you were that boy. and yesterday, you laugh at me due to my clumsiness. thanks eyh.

now, let me tell you, i fall for you.

2008-12-24T23:27:00.002+08:00

OHH, today was my clumsiest day ever.

i sat on a small chair and two of the legs broke/i climb up the stairs and miss my steps and i fall/i was walking on a pavement and it was slippery, i slipped.

best eyh. very very super clumsy.

sis said,"kak! you're seriously CLUMSY."

update soon.

1/2hour to go.

2008-12-21T22:18:00.002+08:00

it seems that sometime i cant understand situation after situation. i, being someone who keeps almost partly to herself couldnt think of something right on how to express myself. ive never share mostly my innerself to my own blood family but i much share them with bf and second parents. i cant see the bond with the own parents. im sorry to say this, mom can be biased at times, while dad is being so fussy and rather hot tempered. right now, i need someone to talk to. ohh GOD, because of you, I stay strong.

ive got myself W595. but still my less than six months 65oo is still in good condition.

update soon.

2008-12-19T23:52:00.004+08:00

ohh, i am still thinking if that boy will be my future husband. i can see that parents or even the relatives seems to like the way he is. Yes, i admit that it doesnt took so long that everyone is accepting him. ive done my best to prove to them that he was my dream guy, i guess so. i can see that he's trying his best to give all out and to prove to the family members that he was serious about us. i guess, if time fly so fast, and u were my true love, i want to be with you forever.
everyone call you,"educated boy."

2008-12-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

it was the superFUN ever Sentosa trip with the second family. yes, i went to Sentosa with my second parents, bf, and all the other instant siblings and fiza(my aunt's sister from JB)
and we had super lots of fun, with dolphin lagoon where dolphins are super adorable, underwater world with like lots of fishes, luge and sky ride which i had a very funny experience, tiger skytower which very super giddy as it goes round and round and round. WOO .
and then, we headed to East Coast Park to have a shortwhile picnic and then sent the rest to Parkway Parade while bf and I went home sweet home.

it was once in a life time experience, and i do want more of this outs with the families.

im Done with Sentosa trip. a Jb trip tomorrow.yeah yeah.

2008-12-17T23:18:00.001+08:00

ive got a sentosa trip tomorrow.
super excited.

im going broke. broke. broke.

2008-12-15T22:14:00.001+08:00

ohh, im not the girl you can play prank with.
and you boy, dont expect me to do something.
i cant be bothered.

2008-12-14T23:26:00.005+08:00

its been superlong that i spent my time with this two lovely irritating kentals, the dearest sister and the bestfriend. waking up in the morning, feeling excited for the outs. the heavy rain didnt stop us with the outs. besfrend fetch us and headed to take our breakfastwithlunch at s11. then, headed to bugis for windowshop. with the crazysales, im tempting to spend. ok soon when i get my pay. errgghh. and then, feeling so tired walking here,there,back and fro and so we decided to go T1 for dinner; POPEYE seyh. ok, camwhore was the best moment.
thanks love for the outs. i want it again again but with more people can can? and i want to bring mom&dad please.

i said,"sape sampai kereta dulu dia menang?"
sis said,"macam budak-budak seyh!"
i said,"oklah, saper last anak kambing."
wah, like flash both the lovely ran for the car. &im ended be the kambing.

update soon.

2008-12-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

my mind was confused almost everytime. im jsut having this fickle mind. i love you but i jsut need him for now. i know you felt so stupid sometimes for always being there for me even though i care much about him rather than you. you cant blame me and i cant blame myself either. it wasnt your fault too. there was a moment you had time for me but yet you didnt make it useful. there was a moment you was super busy that you hardly had a little minute for me. sometimes, i want to explain myself to you but i dont even know how to potray them. right now, i need you, you and you. YES YOU! the boy whom i always love and almost everyone favourite. im over excited and always looking forward to meet you, to receive your msgs, to receive your calls and everything that between us. oh you, i miss you .

skip . -_-

im done with my holidays schedule. im fully booked on mon,wed&fri with tutoring. and i wish to meet my twobestfriend(thecouple,fath&jib),shahidah love and whoever that wish to meet me. eyh eyh eyh. and i want a jurong bird park trip, sentosa, vivocity and yes, I WANT SHOPPING.

OK, UPDATE SOON SOON.

2008-12-12T23:57:00.002+08:00

it seems that everyone falls asleep so fast lately. oh, and surprisingly my eyes dont shut even if it past 12midnight. im always spent after12midnight writting, watching, talking and everything that i like and always do. And most importantly, reflecting back the memories before i fell asleep either on the phone with someone or i fall asleep with my too much imagination.

and let me anounce something super bringing excitement to me.
ITS THE HOLIDAYSSSSS .
bloody hell, ive lots to plan anyway.schedule all my things and hopefully i could be someone very organized. eyh, dream on .

it seems that closefriend is being fugly asshole. ignored me. thanks eyh and putting thousands of blame on me. and i felt bestfriend had been keeping those feelings from me. whatever, i dont care and im concern about my own welfare.

ok, i cant wait february to come, TWO BIG EVENT which include my BIRTHDAY.

update soon.

2008-12-11T23:19:00.003+08:00

i know ive been lack of super updates.

new year is drawing near, super many things happened. and i wish i could turn back time so that things go the way i want them to be. but yet, i knew i got a long way to go. to discover and explore. i wish miracle could happened and the mistakes that i do just vanished into thin air. ok, dream on.

the most exciting moment i have been waiting for will start in a day time, the HOLIDAYS.
super excited i can say cause i got super plenty of plans.
yeay yeay, but i still will be a good daughter and take care of dad.
ohh, and super most importantly is going on a diet please.
and of course SHOP SHOP SHOP.
BRAS BASAH trip this weekend.

ok, its nearing to midnight.
im calling that boy sooon sooon.
ceyh.

update soon.

2008-12-08T21:59:00.001+08:00

if im the reason for you to change,
i regret with what happened.

my love for you and you were strong.
double love?
confused like never ending.

update soon.

2008-12-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

oh my, things dont go my way.

anyway, tomorrow rayer, yeay.
shall update more eyh.

2008-12-05T23:52:00.002+08:00

ohh yeah yeah, its TGIF!
cool or what?
anyway, today was the slackest moment ever.
imagined we were doing worsheet at the last minute point of time, we were wasting one hour of breakout two like playing stewpid game and it shows how bad my drawing skill was.
GGRRRRHH -_-
oh, camwhore the best siah, baik gila.

and the enlighten part;
when wendy(maths's facilitator) wrote something sweet in her comment on individual for problem 12,
"I love to see your smile everything I come to your team. Bring on the cheer to the rest too."
good right?

okay, update soon.

2008-12-04T23:09:00.005+08:00

OMG! bf having high fever, and luckily he's not admitted.

i think ive been neglecting him, im so sorry.

& i hope faisal can take care of him.

like you said,"super nurse to the rescue."

oh, im not performing well in class.

i keep laughing during discussions and even presentation.

hahaha

ohh and i like when nabs says,"COOL OR WHAT? CLAPP AH."UPDATE SOON SOON.

2008-12-04T15:50:00.003+08:00

ohh, fizza happily tagged me. GEREK KAPE?

anyway, thanks for giving me something to occupy my boredom.

RULE #1:

People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2:

Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
of course. dont KPO can? thanks eyh.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?
depends actually but currently im inlove with someone's 3years older.

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
oh please, i dont wait for love to come okay?

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
give half of it to my parents, and keep the rest for myself.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
yes, if i have to.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
well, i guess both plays an equal part in a relationship.

7.How do you define love?
love is rojak can?

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i cry like theres no tommorow can?

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
yes, when my parents approved the relationship.

10. What makes you sad?
when i dont get what i want.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
happily married with one child can?

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
my huge boyan families and dearest bff, bf, friends. can?

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?
care and concern from the family.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich but happily leading a moderate life. happily ever after like that.

15.What is your favourite colour?
colourful can?

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
both lor. can what? i am super serious cause want to be fair.

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
depends on situation but i will try to forgive and forget.

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
"ive no idea why i can like you?"

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?
i guess ill choose friends because its not easy to find true friends like i have currently.

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?
yes of course and true love will make you high.

5 ppl who's goin to do this survey.
a) junidah
b) aisha
c) att
d) marina
e) ct shahira

DONE !

2008-12-02T21:30:00.002+08:00

ohh, i had an earlier post today.

i was reading those chat logs with idris.
ohh boy, i want this relationship like that first moment.

update soon.

2008-12-02T08:39:00.002+08:00

an early post.

i wasnt aware that things get worst.
i was sad to know about it.
all i could say now, i love you dad.

ohh, and i was really did nothing for yesterday module.
really relek one corner siot.
i was bloody sleepy anyway, that was due to the weekend trip.
and thanks fir for happily chatting with me during second breakout.
yes, we did talk about like long time story, haha.
when i fall for him, gila baby maut eyh fir sukakan you.

skip -_-

and to dearest bestfriend, im not lying but i fall inlove with you.
ill try to care and take concern of you.

lastly, it was the arrival of the newborn, HANA SOFIA.
congrats to cousins.

ok, ill rush to study UT now.

update soon.

2008-11-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

dear babe,
come back to reality.
thanks for taking note about my HOT&happening.
dont make me your gossips cause it wont turn good.
ill join you play this bloody game but ill win for sure.
GOODLUCK.

fugly ugly maggot.
thanks eyh madafucker.

2008-11-26T22:56:00.003+08:00

oh, and this girls as well as their other team mates won the quiz session during meeting three and their hard work paid off. AND im happily half-understanding their chinese conversation.

they said,
"hazirah want to partial."

she said,
"wei liang gigi bogeh."

eykh seriously superRANDOM.

&^%#@ZOMMGG!@^*
ive been non-stop eating.
im like the chewing machine.

update soon.

2008-11-25T22:21:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 3YEARS6MONTHS;LOVE AFFAIR .

ive fall inLove with this boy for like 3years6months and surprisingly, it still counting.
but sadly, conflicts after conflicts & we'll still standing strong, LOVEE.

im STRESS. superSTRESS.
with school, im just not so excited.
with family affair, i hope dad recover soon. iloveyou dad.
with love, i dont even know and blank.

will be very SUPERBUSY.
hot happening event FEBRUARY.
stay tune and this FAMILY AFFAIRS.

OHH, close friends forgive me for staying away before and after school.

update soon.

2008-11-24T22:03:00.003+08:00

i wasted the three meetings in schhool, surprisingly doing fugly less than 25percent of useless work and that shows alot when it comes to presentation. who cares, im not in the mood anyway. ohh, im done with module selections, and most probably, im free on wednesday. hence, my tutoring shall be done i guess. GGGRRRRHHH, school gettin carapper.

i jsut love those overdue pictures. enlighten my fugly irritating mood abit.& to you, i dun get your point. you are jsut my another normal friend. i only love the superBACEN/mybestfriend and superFLASH/myclosefriend.and to those whom ive been ignoring, supersorry. i need to be left alone.pray hard ill back to myself.

"Janganlah kau tinggalkan dirikuTakkan mampu manghadapi semuaHanya bersamamu ku akan bisaKau adalah darahkuKau adalah jantungkuKau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku"

2008-11-23T21:29:00.001+08:00

"Pertama kali ku bertemu denganmu
Sayunya hatiku merindui dirimu
Walaupun belum kita bersua muka
Namun aku tetap jatuh cinta"
dedicated to someone;imysm and hoping to be with you.

i might not supposed to be so excited.
you might prove me wrong.
OH SHIT SHIT!

why shall i fall for you?
CONFUSED!

2008-11-21T21:09:00.004+08:00

ohh, if people who are jsut curious of this boy, he's my all-time favourite boy, i call him my KAMBING bacen. he is my all-in-one, alover, abestfriend, anightmare, aheartbreaker, asharingpartner and even someone who make me fall to sleep. its gona turn 3years6months this coming 25thNov. i dont even know hows our relationship. yes, i admit that we both are super busy with our things, he with ns and im with school. we could only spend time during the weekends but not always. BLEAAHHH.
boy boy, you came in my life days before 25thJuneO5, so what you think of our LOVE?
anyway, my LOVE for you was strong.

"Bermula pandang pertama.
Kau utuskan senyum mesra.
Aku ingin seribu tahun lagi.
Bersama mu."

2008-11-20T22:08:00.001+08:00

ohh SHIT, whats with the fickle mind?

2008-11-19T22:58:00.005+08:00

so met this girl, a long long time lost friend.
and supposed to do modules selection but ended up camwhoring.
thanks eyh for making me laugh like LOUD LOUD.
and she said,"name saye shahira/siti."

&dearest idris, i dont blame you. let that bitch says whatever she wants.
&yes, imysm.
-_-

update soon.

2008-11-18T21:02:00.002+08:00

RANDOM POST.

ive been tagged by JUN.
she's happily tagging people eyh eyh. (=

the rules and regulations:-

Each player of this game starts off with 1o weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird(or whatever) as well as state this rule clearly.
At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
No tagging back.

1oWEIRD things about me:-
- i admire Tony Hawk like forever.
- i love Spiderman like forever.
- i am a soft-spoken girl&very energetic.
- people who dont even know me think that im super arrogant.
- im superCOOL.
- im superSHORTIE.
- 'OH YEAh YeAH' is my favourite phrase.
- i can be very RANDOM sometimes.
- im not a parents pet.
- but i guess i hv more than 10weird things of myself.

10 people been tagged.
hafizah,geetha,deel,att,marina,Syahira,nuyul,aisha,ameera,nadia.

DONE!(=

2008-11-16T21:19:00.002+08:00

the smiles on my face was superEXCLUSIVE.

anyway, i did zooing again today, but a JIVE-ig event. didnt turn good.

update sooon.

2008-11-15T21:37:00.003+08:00

ive not been feeling well for the past few days.
im having superCONFUSED feelings right now.
SHITS, i cant even answer my own confusion.

im getting so excited when it comes to Wed/Thurs/Fri classes cause superFun.
yesterday's topic; SERVICE.
when it comes to that topic, i was so missing working in Mt Elizabeth Hosp.
yes, i am missing the time i serve food for those patients(some were terribly sick in the head), the double shift, the all-time missing from wards, the all-time eating those extra patient's meal and of course the3pmTeabreak and 8pm Supper which goes "do you want coffee,tea or milo?".
really really missing those days where i earn like 1000++ per month. ENJOY siah!

SKIP (｡◕‿◕｡)

i need to burn FATS FATS FATS.
ABOUT 20KILOGRAMS to lose.
lets start exercising!!
anyone interested to join?
AHAHAHAHAHAAH

ohh, im PROUD to say that I EAT ONLY FISH FOR DINNER.
WOOHHOOO.

update soon.

2008-11-13T22:14:00.002+08:00

above article: hottest news.

ohh, anyway the weirds are coming back.

2008-11-11T22:31:00.002+08:00

a moment ago, i was a superheero.
but too bad, i turn too weak.
i am jsut missing you right now.
my love for you was strong.
you have been badly miss miss miss .

2008-11-10T21:57:00.002+08:00

i was strumming/plucking the guitar. it was super out-of-tune but who cares, im free to pluck/strum/even smash the guitar. i can play the piano's with the horrible tunes you ever hear. i am jsut need a moment to keep track on how i felt. worst to worst, i need an angklung to shake on. yes, to shake a traditional instrument is super COOL.

ive 2hours left. waiting for my love to call. yes, we are always a phone call away.

" if ure happy and you know it,
you say HOORAY.."

udate soon soon.

2008-11-10T12:48:00.002+08:00

i was super irritated when i found out that even relatives that doesnt even know anything about me, talks/gossips/busybody(whatever you call it) about me. anyway, please please whatever im up to is ain't your business and please my parents approved with the relationship. and even if in the future, to the extreme that anyone gona ask me about the relationship, im sure ill give all out. SHIT!

& unexpectedly, i duno that my daily blog readers/blogghopper are busybody too. ohh, thats very BAD!

skip -_-

- im tootally confused with my feelings. i am still having the tiny-miny love for that exbf and im super admiring my mr nice guy.
i am not lying, ive been spending my late-nights talking on the fone with you and yeah, i shared most things with you. yes, YOU YOU YOU. what if i fall for you, that wont even turn good right? i just duno whats wrong with me? i shall just believe 'dont hope too much'. AAARRRRGGHHH.

&whats with what did came out to your mind:-
"Love doesnt seek whats not there.
Love accepts all pains to bear.
Love that doesnt die is love that we cant see.
Love is just waiting, thats all i know for now."

2008-11-09T19:12:00.002+08:00

did give a hand at Aids confrence yesterday, at Suntec Convention Centre which turns super.

&&yeah yeah, fight for AIDS.

&today/ went to the hi-tea raya with the 'cinta fitri' casting held at raffles ballroom, swissotel the stamford.

anyway, im not gona elaborate more/ im missing idris, my all-time favourite. and im sick -.-

2008-11-05T21:05:00.002+08:00

i want to be a superkid and be in world of fantasy, no more worries by then. but i guess i shall dream on.

ive been spending my time psping on LOCO ROCOO, i am just need to rest my mind in peace. my mind is getting involve in too much of confused and its getting messy. i feel like shouting to the whole world on how i felt. i wish miracle could happen and everything under my control. oh, i shall keep dreaming on. i hope everything can change, like walls can talk and humans have superpower. ok then ill be superkid.

bloodyhell, im getting nonsense.

update soon.

2008-11-05T08:42:00.002+08:00

an early post.

i realised i was weak after days without having a proper normal late night talks with him. yes, i spend almost my late midnight talks with dearest close friend. but yet, i was half-awake yesterday and had a flashback. im missing my alltime favourite exbf. i need a super hugs from you. ill wait for your return. well, my love for you was strong, i cant denied.

update soon.

2008-11-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

he says, " you are a swit lady u knw dat."
i say, "u are a nice guy i cn see tat."

my recent all-time favourite boy, currently seriously miss you.

2008-11-02T20:45:00.002+08:00

its sunday, and fortunately, i enjoy my last few days of holidays. woo, my saturday was superb with early windowshop at arab street, late afternoon swimming at jurong swimming complex and the few hours johor trip, great eyh and thousand appology dearest idris to keep you waiting and felt asleep. you always my best best friend. shall stop the super crap.

i realised that because im too dependent and attached to my bf, ohh currently, exbf, i lack of time spend with dearest family and friends. imgine that i can eventually cancel all dates with others just to meet him. err, well, lets being frank, i guess i nid equal time with everyone. YES everyone. for now, im single but unavailable. im sorry to whoever concern.

school starts tomorrow.
idris, i dont want to hurt u.

update soon.

2008-10-31T22:15:00.002+08:00

im left with two days to spend my one week hols which i guess i dont even appreciate it. well, dearest republicans, enjoy the next two days as when come to monday, back to PBL. arrrggghh (=

oh, today was the best day of the one week. spending time at aunt's crib was super fun. like karaokeing without the microphones, the snake and ladder game, the uno attack and most superb was the upin&ipin's kids show. ohh, the midnight call with thaqif was long time and idris's call was super cute. oh, im missing that dude already, my super bf. ill see him when thurs comes. eyh eyh. hopefully! ok, next midnight will be accompany by idris, hopefully. idris my all-time unknown friend whom the one who i trusted so much from alamak. ok, thaqif flying off tomorrow, good luck my mepek boy.

next plan;
tommorrow - swimming at Jurong.
18 Dec - Sentosa trip.

update soon.